living with autism
看了bbc的那个纪录片Living with autism，里面有段对话我觉得很有意思，所以记下来
sarah是纪录片陈述者的一名观察对象，片子里没有详细呈现她被确诊的程度，但她可以独立生活，是一名学者和演说者，像她说的那样，她善于面对有固定对象、有固定对话主题和不需要交流反馈的社交活动，但对于那些不确定的、没有事前了解的对象和社交话题，她通常会感到焦虑无措。但她会去思考，去模仿，而且很大程度上借用模仿来使自己融入日常的社交
keith是她的室友，片子对他的刻画很少，从有限的镜头来看，他和sarah的情况很像，有的话语直接让我想到基本演绎法里的米福……以下是节选的对话
Back at home here in Worthing, she's just movedin with her partner Keith, who is also on the autistic spectrum. They're about to spend their first Christmastogether in their new home. So how can these two people forge a relationshipwhen social interactions cause them crippling anxiety?
INTERVIEWER: How did you find each other, meet each other?
Sarah: (giggle) On the internet! Where all socially awkward people go to find each other.
INTERVIEWER: Was there any rush of love atany point in the early days?
Keith: I don't really know what that means. Erm...
Sarah: I never expected to fall for him orbe particularly attracted to him or anything. It was a really logical experiment, to deliberately go out with someone that I didn’t fancy that muchin order to see what it would be like to have a nice friendship with somebody, cos that wasn’t my kind of history. What was your thinking? You wanted someoneto have sex with.
Keith: Yeah, yeah.
Sarah: And you were largely…
Keith: I think that was my initial motivating force, yes.
Sarah: …unconcerned about who that was. Therewasn’t a huge amount of selection process.
Keith: No. If someone was willing then so was I.
Keith: So why are we together, then?
Sarah: I don't know. Why are together? You tell me.
Keith: You're my… required amount of social contact.
Sarah: I'm your 5ml teaspoon a day?
Keith: Yes, that’s it.
Sarah and Keith constantly struggle to makesense of social activities.
Sarah: We don't do any socializing whatsoeverfor Christmas. I think you've got a Christmas works lunch that everybody goes to in your office. Doesn’t even occur to me to even think about anything. It doesn't feel like… it just doesn't occur to me that we would go somewhere. Where would we go? What would we do?
Keith: What would you do?
Sarah: I don't know. What do you do?
Keith: I don't know. No.
Sarah: It wouldn't even occur to me to wantto do anything like that, not at all. I don't miss people. I don't have the emotion of missing somebody when they're not there. I might prefer them to be with me… but I don't think it's quite the same emotion that I understand that other people have in terms of missing people.
INTERVIEWER: And yet you two are in a close relationship.
Sarah: Yes. We are peas in a pod. (giggle) Do you miss me when I'm not there? I don't think you do. I think we've talkedabout this before, haven't we?
Keith: When I have to interact with others,then yes, because the interaction that I have with them is never as satisfying as the interaction I have with you.
Sarah: Is that 'missing'? You've always said, "I prefer it when you're there, " which suggests to me a sort of absence of a …
Keith: (Nod)
Sarah: I think missing involves abstract imagination. It involves… some kind of ability to picture another reality other than the one you're in at the moment, and I don’t think either of used are particularlycapable at doing that.